Exploring His Wonders

I have been the wayward child
I have acted out
I have questioned Sovereignty
And had my share of doubt
And though sometimes my prayers feel like
They're bouncing off the sky
The hand I hold won't let me go
And is the reason why...

This is a near perfect example of the way my life had been. Never feeling secure in the hand of my Savior, doubting His ability to hear and answer my prayers. Yet through it all, He never let go of me, and has taught me wonders anew.

[Chorus:]
I will stumble
I will fall down
But I will not be moved
I will make mistakes
I will face heartache
But I will not be moved
On Christ the Solid Rock I stand
All other ground is sinking sand
I will not be moved

My search for the Christian university that the Lord is wanting me to attend has only reinforced that He is the ultimate planner and director of my life. While I in my own strength will make mistakes, in Him, I will never be moved anywhere that He has not already prepared me to go.

Bitterness has plagued my heart
Many times before
My life has been like broken glass
And I have kept the score
Of all my shattered dreams and though it seemed
That I was far too gone
My brokenness helped me to see
It's grace I'm standing on

It would be incredibly easy for me to harbor an untold amount of bitterness in my heart, but I know that I walk in too much of His grace for that. In His grace, I have been given the ability to forgive, forget, and move forward with my life. I am indebted to my Savior forever for the forgiveness of my sins.

And the chaos in my life
Has been a badge I've worn
Though I have been torn
I will not be moved

(Lyrics Copyright 2008; Natalie Grant)